I like my Whiskey on the Rocks with a Side of Codependent Love.

And I know I was addicted to you. I wanted to be around you, always, even if it meant sitting, doing our own thing, in silence. I was addicted to how good you made me feel — about everyday life, about myself.

When we broke up, I went through a withdrawal period. At first, it was excruciating. I’m embarrassed to admit, but I created an album on my phone that was just photos of you and of us. I’d linger on that screenshot I took of you that time we’d left our Skype open so we could fall asleep together. And I’d lay in bed with my “sad playlist” playing, my tissues spread out across the sheets like a snotty blanket, and I’d relive those memories we had just to feel a little bit closer to you.

You’d still text, and every time your name popped up on my phone, I’d get an anxious but excited feeling in the pit of my stomach.

Then, slowly, I tried to wean myself off of you. My sister would take me on runs up Mount Royal in Montreal, and I’d sweat you out of my skin — out of physical memory. I’d go for drinks with friends to try and forget about you, but still, I couldn’t help but think of all the pints we’d shared. How we’d go to the high street near your old house and talk for hours in those soft, squished-down couches, and a classic rock song would come on and you’d ask me if I knew it, and when I didn’t, you’d tell me about what it meant to you.

And it was like you’d crawled yourself into my life back home; one that you had never gotten the chance to be a part of.

From that first real heartbreak, I started to drink a bit more. I’d drink more when I was going through a breakup, yes, but while I was in a relationship, too. Like I had to…

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